Why this time will be different.

I was going to title this post "Back at it", but then I saw the last post, from March, is titled "Back in the Saddle". So...

The question can be asked, why will this time be different? I've started and stopped so many times. Why will this be the time I make it happen and stick with some sort of fitness routine?

One is, I'm starting to find the fun in it. I recently started Yoga Camp on Youtube. I am five days in. It's been thirty minutes each time. The instructor is good, very calming. One thing I really appreciate is that she tells you to find what feels good. A lot of times with fitness workout videos, you feel that if you don't hit a certain mark , you miss out on something. Maybe you do, but there is a lot to be said about finding your own way and putting in the effort.

One other thing that I enjoy is that each day is different. I have a yoga DVD, but after awhile, it becomes too similar and boring. Changing up the routine provides a challenge and keeps it fresh.

I haven't decided if I'll do yoga before school or after school. We shall see what works starting next week. At any rate, I discovered this morning that I can touch my toes, so...something is working.

I will also add in the elliptical and kettle bell workouts as well. Some free weights. I was thinking I would 30-60 minutes of something when I get up in the morning, plus some when I get home.

One thing that I know that I have to do is carve out time for this. And frankly, that will be as hard as I make it. And if I am finding the fun in exercise, then it shouldn't be too hard. "I'm going to go have fun," shouldn't be a hard thing to do.

I have to commit to myself. But, that said, I have to recognize that I am not perfect.

Will I miss a day of workouts? Yes. Will I have a day where I eat too much? Yes. In the last, I let one day become one week, and then the progress of a month is wasted. No more. Mistakes will happen, but they can't define me as I try and redefine myself.

I try to be a positive person. I wasn't for a lot of years, and it wasn't all that fun. So, I try to be positive. But, I have to admit that this summer was disappointing. I didn't put in the work. I let there be too many bad days.  I talked a big game, made lots of plans and promises, but in the end, I didn't come through.

At this point, I need to come through. I need to carve out the time. Because, one of these days, I won't be able to talk myself into jumping back on the wagon unless I make some changes now.